And TheN it was 3..

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AnD theY Say onLY foolS rush In... BUt Hey ThatS what HappeNnEd. Try as You might BUt At Times you JusT cant ContROl emOtionS. FeElings are CreaTed by The Brain but Felt by thE HearT. PeOplE always tell You FOlloW youR heaRT. What they Didnt Tell You is ChoICes have ConseQuenCEs.

So AS a FoOl who FolLoweD hiS emoTions aND THink NOt I was BRaSH. It WOulD be okay If It waS 2005 bUT no LongeR itS noT. ThaT aNaLOgy Of bEar ThouGH A Better OPtioN This TiME does NOt Work in ThiS time...

A FiASCO luckY i DiDnt CreAte... I sHaLL juST kEEp thIS FeeLinG AnD leT in TimE it AbaDE...

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No story still but a drama ensues... :)

CluELeSS or JusT PlaIN DuMB?

CluELeSS or JusT PlaIN DuMB?
2nd September 2009

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AnD It RaInED and It RaInED all dAY… They Say the RaiN brIngs about WeaLTH… For The RaIN brings aBoUt Life… AnD on This very RaInY DaY… Shall begin a NeW LiFE… The RaIN wash Not OnLY The SoRROws but it CleaNSeS and puRifIES… It CooLS aND SooTHes This HeaRT… AnD IN this RaIn… I COuLD HIDe… As teaRs TrIcKlIng Out… whIlE I CriED oUt My HeaRT… As I AsK mySeLF… If ThiS is For Us… WhY aM I LeFt AlOnE…

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In a carpark somewhere…

Nurul: Normie… you’ve been quite the whole while… anything the matter?

Norman: Nope… everything ok…

Nurul: But u don’t look ok…

Norman: Must be the breeze… im still feeling cold… mind if I don’t walk u up?

Nurul: Its ok… I can manage… u take care alright? You don’t look too good…

Noman: Ok… Good Night Yul…

Nurul: Good night Normie… thanks…

Norman: Welcome…

Norman made his way home. His mind was filled with thoughts of the times he had wwith Nurul. He was young then… still in his early twenties… though it has been so long it seems like it was a fresh memory… Like it only happen yesterday… he had never felt so happy… every day his eyes would light up like a boy getting a toy he so badly wanted for his birthday… but the smile also brings about the tears… for with the joy comes the pain… Without him realising he was already at his home carpark… with him still reminiscing his life not long ago… the silence was broken with a call on his phone…

Norman: Hello…

Danial: *shouts* DUDE YOU ARE SUCH AN IDIOT!

Norman: Huh?

Danial: I really can’t figure out what is going out in that head of yours Man… I always thought you were the one who wants to keep people together… I always thought you were a member of the PEACE Corps… But you disappoint me bro~

Norman: I don’t get you? What are you trying to say?

Danial: You are really dumb!

Norman: Dani… tell me whats going on?

Danial: Guess where I am and what im doing?

Norman: You are out with Nora for dinner….?

Danial: Ditto… and why am I doing that?

Norman: Because you people are out celebrating?

Danial: And there is nothing wrong with that?

Norman: Yarh… you guys are celebrating for a job well done…

Danial: Hello… Earth to Dani! You don’t get it do you?

Norman: What?

Danial: Normie cant believe you can be a real JERK!

*incoming call tone*

Norman: Sorry Dani ive an incoming call… *proceeds to next line* Hello…

Nurul: Hello Dani? Home yet?

Norman: Sorry Yul but im on the line can I call u back later?

Nurul: Sure…

Norman: *hangs up* Hello Dani? Hello?
Dani hanged up. Norman tried recalling Danial on his cell but there is no reply…

Norman: *thinking* What is it now? Just what is going on… what have I done?

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Quote:
|~ Dont take long to figure whats going on till when u do they are already gone... ~|

I donno what im saying... thats what going on my head right now...

BluRrEd ViSiOns.

BluRrEd ViSiOns.
23rd October 2008

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Been quite some time since im feeling this ecstatic… always thought that there will be no more light at the end of the tunnel… however a series of exciting events have been occurring of late and I have to thank the person who have made me feel as such… no need to mention names I think you know who you are… we only had the conversation yesterday… 

For some stupid reason i have been demoralising myself of late… belittling myself for what had happened in life and blaming myself for it… as much as it was due to myself lacking in plenty of departments I should not have dwelled on it, SETTLED it (this is BOLD and underlined for a reason) and then move on…

Maybe I was having blurred vision not sure of what I was supposed to do… but however its getting much better now… People around me have been a real support and of course a particular someone just never fail to make me smile for nites before I go to bed… HOPEFULLY it can all end up in happily ever after… People said fairy tales don’t exist… that’s coz they didn’t make their own… 

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Norman: I just love the atmosphere here… its so relaxing…

Nurul: Yarh... and to have someone by your side to enjoy it is even more fulfilling…

Norman: But sometimes you need to be alone when you need to clear your mind off things… that’s what I do when Im here…

Nurul: Normie… you worry too much… relax… that’s why I bring you here not to worry…

Norman: It aint that easy Yul…

Nurul: Normie… please… enough okay… stop whining like a baby…

Norman: I am not… I just want to know what is happening…

Nurul: Like I said… don’t… these friends of yours are big enough already… you don’t need to take care of them they should be able to take care of themselves…

Norman: But…

Nurul: Ar.. ar… ar… *puts finger on Normans lips* No buts… Remember Norman they are just your friends… when the time is over they will leave you behind…

Norman: That’s not what friends are for…

Nurul: Normie… that’s what all of them say… but the sad reality is people move on… they will go through moments where they will have to leave you…

Norman: That’s normal we all have to part ways but that doesn’t mean we are not together… we can still be close and keep in touch…

Nurul: Till when Normie… tell me till when…

Norman: That’s for the individual to decide… the problem with us humans is… we always take things for granted… our life… our family… our friends… among others… and the sad thing is we only know how to appreciate something when its…. GONE… *sings* Don’t know what you got till its gone…

Nurul: Cinderalla… you played me that song once I remembered…

Norman: Yarh… but that too didn’t change your mind… you were happier still in your choice back then…

Nurul: I didn’t make another choice Normie… its you who gave up on me… I think its fair that I chose another as you gave up on me…

Norman: Looks like you also gave up on me…

Nurul: Like I said you chose to walk away not me… its when I realised you did not have an interest in me anymore that I took another step…

Norman: Yarh… like I said… you gave up on me… I wasn’t your first choice… I was a… Back-up..

Nurul: Normie… lets put that aside shall we… don’t tell me you are still sour over our past?

Norman: ….

Nurul: Normie im sorry I let you go ok… but its all in the past now… lets not talk about it… whats important is im back in your life…

Norman: ….

Nurul: Normie… we all make mistakes in our lives… sometimes we can undo it…. Sometimes we just cant. Even if we did get to correct those mistake we cant run away or deny the fact that we did made a mistake… Lets not go into a blame game or whatever anymore…

Norman: ….

Nurul: Normie… come on…

Norman: Ok… its late… I want to go back…



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Okay I started this post on the 23rd of October and that is like 3 months ago… my bad… I didn’t continue… but for the reason I stopped for a while I continued… sorry to keep you all waiting… if there is anyway… my viewpoint would be along what Nurul said…

We all have made mistakes one point or another in our life. Some of us chose to walk away from that mistake and hope nobody knows. And there are others being punished forever for their mistakes. For we are human that is why we sometimes find it hard to forgive others. For that reason too we overlooked that because we are human we should accept when others makes a mistake.

BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN YOU CAN MAKE MISTAKES ON PURPOSE!

Mistakes are done by accident or not knowing, when a mistake is done on purpose it’s not a mistake but an act of IGNORANCE!

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DisTorTioN…

DisTorTioN…
Monday, 20th October 2008

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Had a lil chat till the wee hours of the day today with a friend. She was looking for some answers to a question that was bugging her. Sadly I couldn’t provide her those answers as only she knows the answers… And here I was also looking for mine and she gave me an idiom before she left which loosely means you always see the things far away that you don’t see what is near…

Which makes me think that maybe I should see what is in front of me instead of looking too far ahead… There were times aplenty when I wish that, that could be my answer but deep down inside I know its not possible that she is my answer… but well its not as easy as that… but then... in future you can never know… but for now its a big fat NO... only time will tell is that to be my answer… :P

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Norman: Yul im sorry with the way I treated you back then just that I wasn’t really in my right state of mind…

Nurul: Its ok baby… whats matters is your mind is with me right now…

Norman: Yarh… anyway thanks for remembering…

Nurul: Remembering?

Norman: Yarh on how much I like this place… it always makes me relax… better still if I can get to see the sunset…

Nurul: How can I forget… it is here where you brought me on our first date… and it is also here when we got most of our first…

Norman: Most of our first?

Nurul: You men you forget?

Norman: Errr…

Nurul: Expected of you to forget… remember the time I almost slipped when I wanted to sit… you hold my hands for the first time… what about the time when I shivered after watching the sunset with you… you wrapped me around with your jacket and hugged me… and of course… im sure you couldn’t have forgotten this…

Norman: This?

Nurul: *Nurul comes forward and kisses Norman*

In the background… Danial and Nora saw the kiss…

Danial: Nora im sorry… didn’t know he’d bring her here…

Nora: Danial… its not your fault… this time im positive I really wanna go home…

Danial: But what about all these food? Nora wait…
*chases after Nora*

Zooms in back to Norman… stops kissing Nurul and look back,,,

Norman: Did you hear?

Nurul: Hear what?

Norman: I donno I thought I heard Danial’s voice…

Nurul: No I don’t… Silly you… he isn’t here...

Norman: Must be my imagination…

Nurul: You just cant stop thinking about your friends can you? First Rauf now him…

Norman: Sorry..

Nurul: Its okay… now shhhh *puts finger on Norman’s lips* lets enjoy the view and the breeze… hug me can? Im cold… *pulls Norman’s hand and cling around her waist…

Meanwhile… Danial was chasing Nora…

Danial: Nora wait…
*grabs Nora’s hands*

Nora: What?

Danial: Nora… don’t be rash… calm down…

Nora: Whats there to be calm about… I saw him kissing her…

Danial: Things may not be the way it seems…

Nora: What? They are getting back so fast… he’s been wanting her… now that she has her back its settled… she did what I failed to do in a month…

Danial: Precisely… Nora… calm down… like you said… you guys have dated for a month… im sure he if he knows you love him, he wants you more than her…

Nora: Dani please… lets live in a real world… she is his dream girl… why would he want me still? Its over… I lost…

Danial: Hey why are u giving up so early? Maybe he’s still asleep that’s why he sees her as him dream girl still… may be he did not… Normie is not in his right frame of mind of late… the disappearance of Rauf have made him more…

Nora: More?

Danial: I cant catch the word… but why don’t you find out from him tomorrow alright? Like I said… a girl like Nurul would make me want to kiss her anytime… she just makes guys go oh so weak in the knees… now wipe those tears away… its so ugly to see a beautiful maiden cry…

Nora:Okay… *wipes tears*

Danial: Now that’s more like it… youre glowing more brighter than the moon is tonight…

Nora: Danial… thank you…

Danial: No thank you… people are all looking at me like as if I make you cry… all I wanted to do was bring you to Normie’s favourite hangout… he always goes here to clear his mind and relax… and it seems now that he even brings girls here to date…

Nora: Dani…

Danial: Hey… just joking… tell u what lets go to the bench over there and sit down…

Nora: But I wanna go home…

Danial: I do too… but Nora I cant finish this all by myself… lets have a quick bite and then we make our way home okay?

Nora: Ok…

And so the two sat down and have a light supper… Otahs, sate and some other stuffs…

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Don’t believe just what you see or hear… always find out the whole story before you make a stand… don’t make a decision without considering its outcomes… for every action there is a reaction… though sometimes the reactions may not be desirable… all you need to do is persevere and be patient… for we all have our own paths in life… At least the end of the day… you know that that is your decision and not that is driven by external factors or others… that itself shall be a reason for you to hold on…

No quotes from me… for now… :) Enjoy…

Pararell ShaRinG

Pararell ShaRinG
Saturday 18th October 2008

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Just caught Motley Crue in live in action at Fort Canning on Thursday 16th of October… Im not really a fan of theirs but due to some circumstance I decided to go… And I went back being a fan… even though they’re late… But I miss my lesson on that day and it was the concluding lesson… so one gained experience… plenty lost knowledge… The damage? Both are Priceless….  I think im confusing you people with what im saying hahahah….

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In a fine dining restaurant somewhere in the middle of the city…

Nurul: Goodness…

Norman: Huh?

Nurul: Normie… stop thinking about it…

Norman: Huh?

Nurul: Normie… I know it when something is bothering you… I can read you like a book…

Norman: Sorry…

Nurul: I thought we already decided… that you wont think about him already…

Norman: How can I not Yul… its so not right…

Nurul: Ah… I miss hearing you call me dat… Normie baby… listen… I don’t want you to go out having dinner with me, is right in front me but not looking at me… talking to me… nor is paying any attention to me…

Norman: Im sorry… but like I said I was just worried on what is going on...

Nurul: Will you stop that… Tell you what… you finish your food, and then we’ll go to your favourite place to relax…

Norman: Huh?

Nurul: Don’t tell me you forget where that is too! Or have you found another favourite?

Norman: No…

Nurul: Ok then we’ll go there later to chill out…

Norman: Ok…

Over at the coastal area of the eastern part of the island… Nora and Danial were having a walk…

Nora: I cant believe im doing this… but as much as I hate it… I always find that you always have a good way with understanding a women’s feelings…

Danial: Whats hard to believe? Hey im not all just for fun ok…

Nora: Ok… so how much do you know about this Nurul?

Danial: Well… other than she is a real heart breaker to my friend and the main reason why he choses not be attached again, is a real hottie and is on the want to be with list of many men… I guess not much…

Nora: Ouhkae… so she is the reason…

Danial: Errr… why you ask?

Nora: Well… Man ever told me… that he can’t get over a bad experience… that is why he is always unsure on how to treat a women… he always apologises when he doesn’t treat me like he should…

Danial: U MEAN NORMAN ILL TREATED YOU? *looking shocked*

Nora: No… of course not silly… its just that sometimes he made advances but he pulled back…

Danial: Advances??? YOU MEAN HE… HE… He tried to…
*closing his mouth in horror*

Nora: OF COURSE NOT! Dats outrageous! I mean like when we walk he’d rubbed shoulders with me… and would brush my hands with his then… he’d try to hold it and... he will suddenly let go... and then there are times when im about to leave the car… he would look me in the eyes… and shifts his body forward and then… when I close my eyes… he’d say… im sorry… good night…

Danial: That is so frustrating!

Nora: Yes! A real anti climax if u ask me… as much as I am open… there are some things that as a girl that I cant do!

Danial: Trust norman to come up with something like that… he can be so good in everything but give him a girl… its like superman coming in contact with kryptonite…

Nora: Actually Dani… he’s okay… id say he treats me well and with full respect… not like what you are doing right now… *hits Dani’s hand*

Danial: Sorry… wanted to keep you warm… the breeze here sure is strong…

Nora: Dani… Going out with you doesn’t mean I let you do anything to me… I wont explode… im more accepting to this… but please… don’t think I am like any other girl you see on the street… and even if I am any girl you see on the streets… you still need to treat me with RESPECT… I am still a lady… If this is how you treat all the ladies… then be ashamed to call yourself a man… coz no man is supposed to take advantage of a lady whether she allows it or not… You are the one who’s supposed to be a leader… not a follower… so stop following your lust…

Danial: *Ashamed* Wow… you sounded like some religious preacher… anyway… Im sorry… I’d promise I wont do it again… anyway… im suppose to be a leader right? Now follow me…

Nora: Huh?

Danial: It’s the reason why I brought you here… I wanna show you a nice place… Surprise Normie one day when u bring him there…

Nora: This is the thing I hate about you… always knowing to find a way out… but I do have to admit… Norman should learn a thing or two from you…

Danial: That’s what I told him… but he’s always…

Nora: *cuts in* He’s shouldnt coz he should stay as he is… coz changing him would make him different…

Danial: You are so fickle…

Nora: Yarh… I am so loving him now…. Just the blurness…

Danial: Coming from you… I so wanna PUKE!

Nora: Shut up and just bring me to this place….

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FeELIngS… I know not what iT means aNyMore…